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that's all.

There Is No Worse Beast Than Human Kind Itself!

listening/watching: Love, Love, Love by Epik High.

favourite line/quote: "I can't stop, love, love, love."

NOTE: To the people who CANNOT stand looking at animals suffer, ignore this post please.

Okay, like I got these pictures from a mail from my mom, it's like something that's going on in Denmark and it's absolutely brutal I tell you, I swear I almost puked looking and them.

Can cry la! So horrible! YUCK! Humans can be such beasts! *pukes*

While it may seem liar even today continues to be made this time of year BRUTAL, Dantesque, bloody slaughter in the Faroe Islands, which belong to Denmark . A country supposedly 'civilization' AND EUROPEAN UNION country. For many people this attack to life is unknown , to sensitivity. IN THIS bloody slaughter to attend Moz to 'show' entering adulthood (!) Is absolutely incredible that no one does A SHIT to prevent this barbarism that are committed against Calderon, an intelligent dolphin who has the particularity of approaching People out of sheer curiosity.

HELPS MEEE!

listening/watching: Secret Valentine by We The Kings.

favourite line/quote: "where both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside."

"Proceed with passion, Jessica. Get out of the gloom and doom mode that you are so familiar with. Don't sit at home and mope. Get out in the sunshine, literally as well as figuratively. Don't stay cooped up inside when there is a huge world out there for you to explore. This is a day to keep things light and energetic. Remember that happiness is a decision that you have to make.
-Today's Horoscope.

WAHHH! lol. Can say weird or not?! Sometimes right, I wonder if Horoscopes are real or they just SO HAPPEN to say what you feel, SO HAPPEN la. AHHH! I chat with Su Sian for the first time in FOREVER this morning, I MISSED YOU SU SIAN! RAWR! She was being all protective, as usual. AHHH! *runs around* I love youuuuu! hahahaha! RAWR! Someone made Grace cry yesternight, *grabs M16* I wonder who that ass is! grhh! *glares*

I friggin HATE PMR! and I'm not even sitting for that stoopid paper, I hate it because it is taking all my regular onliners away from mehh *grumbles about how much JPN sucks* AH WELL! I NEED HELP! ALL MY PRETTY BLOGDERS! I have a Christmas Musical to write and it has to be a friggin comedy, so far I've come up with The Terrorizing Elf. LOL! An elf that terrorizes! RAWR! That way I can make them sing Jingle Bombs by Achmed The Dead Terrorist, arkarkarkark.

SO IF YOU HAVE/GET A SPARK OF IMAGINATION THAT HITS YOU! COMMENT, PLURK, EMAIL, MSN, CBOX ME! porvarvo!!!!!

ANYTHING WILL DO! I don't give a shit how stoopid it is just TELLS MEE! sank you!

I love my friends! :D

Listening to:: Deep and Meaningless by Rooster.

Favorite line/quote:: "you left me feeling high and dry with nothing."

I'm so effing sad to say that the post I wanted to post is NOT gonna be the 100th post. grhh!
I think I postponed it for so long everyone a lil' angry already right?! LOL! I've been paying too much attention to my other blog, DON'T HIT ME! So like, most of me up-to-dates are on my other blog and if you don't get shit that I'm gonna write in this or coming posts, here's a side note for you la ... GO READ MY OTHER BLOG, duh?

Okay, I wanna dedicate this blog post to my babes! and Cohen, and Sai. lol. grhh! My darlings, as you all SHOULD have read from my previous post (on my other blog) have been there for me for the stupidest reason ever la. I thank you darlings for sticking with me even though I was such an ass who would not listen. Yes, I've been in denial FAR TOO LONG and it's high time I came out of it *pops out of denials' black hole* One thing I've come to realize, when you're broken and you think you're all alone, let me snap you back into reality, YOU ARE NEVER ALONE! I'm not gonna bring the whole "you always have God" thing because yeah, to those who are religious, you have the sky to talk to but those who aren't, you always have your girlfriends (some boyfriends, or GBF) okay?! Don't let the bastards get you down! RAWR! So like enough shits la, I WANNA SHOW THE WORLD HOW MUCH MY DARLINGS LOVE ME! hahaha! A couple weeks(?) ago, Ezzie tagged me (click, click) and I tagged a couple of people, I wanted to post their answers on my other blog (when everyone's done it) but grhh, I need to update this blog so, uhm. I'll post the ones of those who have answered.

Bern, Cat, Honey, and Hui Min.

1. The last person to tag you is?
-- Jesshhhiiieeee
-- JessiCA
-- Jessica.
-- Jessie! Doiiii.
[ YAY ME! ]

2. Your relationship with him/her?
-- She is friend. I am friend. Together we are... FRIENDS! =D
[ YESH! *superhero pose* ]
-- Blogger2Blogger/Online friends.
[ KayBeeJay babe! ]
-- She's the brat that CANNOT stop smacking my ass everytime she visits my sites.
[ CAT, I'm on my site now and I see you *SMACK* Honey didn't do question 2. ]

3. Your 5 impression towards him/her?
-- 1. WHY ISN'T SHE ONLINE NOW?!
2. She's a great friend but in serious need of mental help
3. Skittle/candy buddy!
4. Fangirls big bang with me xD
5. umm... has gay brothers? O__o
I suck at explaining in words. >_>
[ le. lol. I am in serious need of mental help. ]
-- I wouldn't say we're super close, but ya know, we have this connectionnnn ;)
[ ya know it to be true. ]
-- She's lucky - so near to Hong Kong& Shanghai
She's funny - Read her blog. You'll LYAO.
She's pretty - Look at her pictures.
She's good in quotes - Read her other blog.
She likes NIGAHIGA! - I don't know... but she posted their videos. HEE
[ ahahha! I'm lucky? can say so la. FUNNY?! HAHAHA, okay. pretty? WAH! thankie bern, you're BEAUTIFUL! :D good in quotes? YOU KIDDING ME?! and YESH I LOVE NIGAHIGA! can't wait for their movie man! ]
-- --Firstly, she's so darn far =/
--Second, she's unbelievably annoying.
--Third, she CANNOT stop tagging me =S
--Fourth, she's loveable, can't deny that.
--And lastly....I mention she's annoying right?
[ hahahah! ISH! ]

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you?
-- Being a friend. Actually not caring that im a pedophile/rapist/psychopath troubled soul is already amazing.
[ awhh! love, we're all insane la ]
-- When she came for my 16th birthday party, that was fun on a whole new level.
[ I STILL HAVE THE INVITATION BOOKMARK! ]
-- She taught me how to put in the Plurk box.
[ lol. don't sweat the small stuff. ]
-- This is tough, seeing that I haven't seen her for months now. But one of them must be when she fed me chocolate coated french fries XD
[ NAH! you see! You love it when I feed you nonsense like kerepok lekor dipped in chocolate fudge. lol. ]

5. The most memorable words that he/she spoke to you?
-- Jesshhhieee: "When I get back I be gettin u SKITTLES!"
Retarded me: =D
[ but Skittle got melamine =( ]
-- I can't remember exactly but I invited her to her first party, so that's a really awesome feeling.
[ YEAP! Honey's b'day bash = first party/first beach party = AWESOMENESS! ]
-- We don't talk. We TYPE. LOL.
[ that's true but we'll talk, SOON! ]
-- CATTAWINA!
[ cattawina wattie poo! ]

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will..
-- prefer tae. >_> Sorry but yeah. You'll be a great gf though! You won't cheat, that's for sure! Just not enough to replace those hot abs, amazing voice, ... *rambles on about the hotness that is tae*
[ EFF YOU HUI MIN! but yeah, I won't cheat :D ]
-- get down&dirty. oh la la.
[ LMAO! that WILL probably happen if Honey becomes my lover. ]
-- Get killed by the certain someone.
[ WHO WANTS TO KILL BERN?!?! *gets mozzie zapper ready* ]
-- beg for a refund XD
[ WTF?! HOI! hmph, FINE! ]

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..
-- AHHHHHHHHHH *closes ears* LALALALALALALALA NOT LISTENING TO YOU! LALALALALALALALA.
[ *does the same thing* ]
-- BE SADDDD ):
[ d'awhh. *hugs* ]
-- Get killed by many people.
[ lol! no one will kill you Bern, trust me. ]
-- gosh, never thought of that. Prolly cause that will never happen. =]
[ IT WON'T CAT! cos' I hate you that much. lol. ]

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on..
-- could she grow a dick?
[ -.- *shoves middle finger up your face* ]
-- NOTHING. Jessi is perfect in every way!
[ WAH! really?! d'awhh. HONEY IS PERFECT INSIDE OUT! ]
-- Protecting me from the certain someone.
[ WHO IS IT?! RAWR! I'll eat them! ]
-- STOP SMACKING MY ASS!
[ ah, sorry love. That's a no, no! ]

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
-- LALALALALALALA NOT LISTENING TO YOU AGAIN.
[ *shuts Hui Min's mouth cos' she's tone deaf* ]
-- She ate my cookie. HAHAHA!
[ HEY! I'd have only ate it if I got permission! RAWR! ]
-- She's too good to be true. And I'm jealous.....Ahh! This is so wrong.
[ BERNICE GOH ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! ]
-- she keeps smacking my ass? LOL. Nahh, she'll never be!
[ please, your ass is happy that someone actually "notices" it, jks. ]

10. The most desirable thing to do for him/her is...
-- somehow kidnap lezzy and get lezzy to have a boob tatt for her too.
[ HAHAHAHHA! I can't wait for that to happen. ]
-- Go to china :D hahaha ;)
[ COME, COME! I got lotza room! ]
-- Go shopping!
[ *waiting for that day to happen* ]
-- tie both her hands and legs up =D
[ WHAT?! WHY?! hmph! ]

11. Overall impression towards him/her is...
-- umm... umm... JESHHIIEEE-ISH! =D
[ apa dei? lol. ish! 'nuff said la right?! ]
-- One word. AWESOME.
[ :D ]
-- Perfect.
[ -.- thanks. ]
-- She's my annoying hottie ;]
[ AHAHAHHAHAH! *grins* ]

lala, my sayangs *hugs* I love ya'll. CAT! I'll do the tag on me other blog, okay?!
So this is Post 100. Sorry if it's not like TOTALLY AWESOME, lol.

I don't wanna sleep tonight,
stay up till daylight,
cos' I don't wanna dream tonight,
you'll only be there like you always were,
but you are gone.

together we cry ...

I'll be updating, SOON! Post 100 will be something really random!

It'll be so random only 3 people would understand it! haha!

As for now, the blog would seem pretty much DEAD!

because Post 100 is LOOOONNGGGGG! grrrhhh.

So, checkie other bloggie. I update it almost everyday!

jessiekok-theoh-so-hot.blogspot.com.

kisses,

Jessie.

Together we cry…
Together we cry…

Jenny was a poor girl
Living in a rich world
Named her baby Hope when she was just 14
She was hoping for a better world
For this little girl
But the apple doesn’t fall too far from the tree

Well she gets that call
Hope’s too far gone
Her baby’s on the way
But nothing left inside
Together we cry!

What about the junk head
Could have gone the whole way
Lighting up the stage trying to get a deal
Now he’s lighting up the wrong way
“Something for the pain!”
Man you wanna see this kid he was so fuckin’ unreal
When he gets that call
He’s too far gone
To get it together to sing one song
They won’t hear tonight
The words of a lullaby

Together we cry…
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Together we cry…
Whoah oh whoah oh whoah
Together we cry…
Oh we cry we cry we cry
Together we cry…
Oh we cry we cry
Whoah oh whoah oh whoah

Oh…Mary’s ambitious
She wanna to be a politician
She been dreaming about it since she was a girl
She thought that she’d be the one to change the world
Always trying to pave the way for women in a…man’s world
But life happened, house, kids, 2 cars, husband hits the jar, cheques that don’t go very far now
Now she in it - can’t change it, she keeps her mind on her wages
The only rattling cages!

Together we cry…
Together we cry…

(with all these tears we could flood the ocean, we're all in awe of a world thats broken)

Together we cry,

Oh we cry, we cry.

There comes a time when every bird has to fly
At some point every rose has to die
It’s hard to let your children go
Leave home
Where they go?
Who knows!
Getting drunk
Getting stoned
All alone
Teach a man to fish
You’ll feed him never lie
You show your kids the truth
Hope they never lie
Instead of reading in a letter that they’ve gone to something better
“Bet your sorry now! I won’t be coming home tonight”

I’m sick of looking for those heroes in the sky
To teach us how to fly

Together we cry!

Together we cry…
Together we cry…
(with all these tears we could flood the ocean, we're all in awe of a world thats broken)
Together we cry...
Together we cry...

-We Cry by The Script.

The dopeness, The wackness.

sometimes it's right to do wrong things.

The Wackness. :D It's a pretty awesome movie with a lil' weird hints here and there! It's weird how the movie is about friendship. It's pretty sweet minus the soft-core porno. haha. Spoilers ahead ... Thou shalt stop reading, Hui Min, I'm talking to you! Before you stop reading, HUI MIN WATCH THE WACKNESS! nyahah! The Wackness stars, Josh Peck, who I must say has lost weight and there's something about his eyes! Sir Ben Kingsley, LOL! I love his character in the movie man! Famke Janssen, you know Jean Grey from X-Men and she's also Ava Moore from Nip/Tuck. It stars Mary Kate Olsen too, she's like some crack whore or something in the movie, lol. Wiki says she's a Phish-following dreadlocked pixie. HAHA!

The movie centers around Luke Shapiro (Josh Peck) who's life is pretty much screwed with all the problems he has at home and how he's socially uncomfortable and has no friends. OH OH! He's also a drug dealer, ahah! As I read off wiki and the back of the DVD and DUH it's mentioned in the movie, the movie is set in the Summer of 1994 and the streets of New York was pulsing with hip hop and the then mayor, Rudolph Giuliani was only beginning to implement his anti-fun initiatives against "crimes" like noisy portable radio, graffiti and public drunkenness =\. Anyway, Luke trades weed for sessions with his therapist, Dr. Jeffery Squires (Sir Ben Kingsley). Okay, Sir Ben was super funny in the movie man! He's like always drunk or something and he acts like such a kid! His marriage with his wife, Kristin (Famke Janssen) was practically falling apart. Luke spent the Summer with Dr. Squires' step daughter, Stephanie (Olivia Thrilby) who he fell for. It's so sad that she broke his heart *sighs* When Dr. Squires lost his wife, he wanted to like suicide but thanks to Luke, he didn't =) awh. friends! It's weird how the tables turned at the end of the movie when the doctor became the drug dealer and the drug dealer became the doctor. HAHA!

JUST WATCH THE MOVIE DAMNIT! It's pretty awesome =)

don't trust people who don't like dogs.
don't trust people who don't like the beach.

rant about stores!

This is a rant and since this blog tends to neglected, I shall post this here =]

I'm actually really pissed!

I hate stores who open only in CERTAIN places! Can't you open EVERYWHERE?!?!

=( SAD! I mean like grhhh. PISSED!!

I'm sad that PADINI is a Malaysian brand and only has stores in M'sia! Fuck it! I LOVE PADINI! RAWR!

I'm pissed that Borders is not in China! STUPID! I mean seriously, where the hell am I gonna find English books?! I mean, yeah they do have a PARTICULAR bookstore here in ShenZhen that sells English books but nyehh very little options only lehh! Yes, I've visited that bookstore and I must say, very disappointing!

Daddy and mommy took us(kids) stationery shopping a while ago, I think I mentioned this (probably in my other blog), well here's what I didn't. Before going to the stationery store, daddy wanted to buy some books and I was thinking "heaven". When I walked in the store, all I saw was Meg Cabot, like EW! I hate Meg Cabot! I dunno, it's something about her books!

I scolled for Cecelia Ahern because I really wanted to read P.S. I Love You and a couple of others.

I searched UP, DOWN, LEFT, RIGHT, tip-toed, squat and got NOTHING! not even ONE book by her.

I was like "WTF?!?!" Disappointed much. I complained to my mommy and she didn't care =\

I gave up and looked for Cecily Von Ziegesar instead. I mean, GOSSIPGIRL is addictive on TV, no? So why not get addicted to the book? I mean LOOK at the cover ...

I remember staring at the cover when I was a kid back in primary school and the girl who owned the book saw me and instantly HUGGED the book thinking I'd steal it =\ I walked out of the bookstore with only one book "If LIFE is a GAME, THESE are the RULES!" and desperately wanted the fashion design book! It was super duper THICK and I admit that I'm not much of an artist but THAT book was a must have at that point. I'm no fashion designer but GOD! Sometimes I just get these weird out super hot/sexy images of clothing and when I wanna put it on paper I just can't, I'm no Peter Petrelli/Issac Mandez. So, THAT book was like a handbook to drawing fashion designs, it's like 200++bucks Chinese money =\ Mommy said it was expensive. GRH! What if fashion design is my call HUH?!?!

So, that's about Borders.

I checked out La Senza's site, seeing that I get my undies there, and they have La Senza in so many places by Hong Kong and China! suckers! was pissed la. So I checked out some other sites I'd LOVE to shop at. LOL!

MNG is in ShenZhen, Thank God for that!

You know, when Forever 21 first opened, I wanted EVERY piece of clothing and accessory from there!Mommy was working in Queensbay then PLUS it was the holidays, so I worked with mommy, got a load of cash and shopped! Mommy told me not to shop in F21 because it's expensive and their clothing is MADE IN CHINA, so they SHOULD be in China.

The first thing I did when I got to ShenZhen was check out Forever 21's site (stupid of me not to do that in Penang in the first place), GUESS WHAT ?!?!?! There's no Forever21! Shocker?! nahh!

I hate the fact that certain brands are just not around! like RAWR!

Rant over, kindda.

I've been stumbling in the dark,

living in a crash world.

AHAH! Olympic Fever.

The Statics stand ...
China has most golds (17) and US has most medals (?) and second most golds (10).

I'm so totally supporting Micheal Phelps. The poor thing has cancer (on his balls) and this might as well be his last Olympic comp. AHHHHHHHHHH! He's so cute but haha! and OMG! Can George Bush be more dumb?! *sighs* and he's the president! One thing though, he's supporting US and I LOVE PEOPLE WHO SUPPORT THEIR COUNTRY! =)

Click, click for if you wanna read what Perez has to say.

I watched volleyball! WOW! Defending champs Cuba vs. China! China's actually doing good! =] GOOO CHINA! Cuba won! and before that I was watching FOOTBALL! BRAZIL VS. CHINA! BRAZIL WON 3-0! NYAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA! GOOO BRAZIL! I had my jersey on man! woot! I'm a HUGE fan of BRAZIL! Sorry but the Chinese are suckers at football. Later I watched badminton, Indonesia (at least I think it's Indon) vs. Malaysia! WOOOT GOOO MALAYSIA!!! but I'm not watching =\ and OMG! mommy and daddy are so weird -.- and people wonder why I'm different *sighs*

I'm a weirdo I know, just shut up!

BRAZILLLLLL!

laugh until your body's aching,
cry till your hands are shaking.

I'm holding on but letting go of you.

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straightjacket feeling
so maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell
But Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be,
That face is tearing holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense
Off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
to take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell
But Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me,

but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when that memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
and just the thought of you I fear
grip falls away

Yesterday was hell
But Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me,

but today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you.

-Straightjacket Feeling by The All American Rejects.

grhh. SAD! It's like about this dude who's heart was brokened by one he really cared about one too many times and has had it and decided it's time he moved on. He's taking charge and moving on with life =) Such a saddd song. nyahaha. I feel your pain.

More than Words.

Words seem so much and yet so little.

Words seem so true but are such lies too.

Words, Words, Words!

I'm so sick of them.

"I give you my word!"

What does that even mean?!

Words are so hard to trust.

I can't just forgive and forget just because you said three words.

I can't just let you off the hook with just three words.

Words betray me.

Words can KISS MY ASS! RAWR!

How words can mean so much and yet be nothing.

How it fills your head with beautiful emptiness.

So tell me the truth and nothing but the truth,

but even if you say it is the truth, it could be a lie.

Words .

And you were with me
content with walking
So unaware of the world